Let all the other people in this world vanish from your head for a moment. Zone in on yourself, minus other people's opinions getting in the way. When you stop thinking about that certain someone, or that reputation - suddenly you depends on you, and it's just a little bit frightening. Without other people's thoughts or validation, what are you? Where does you come from? How do you expand on this you?
I've been weirdly nice to myself for the last two days, and I'm writing this post now because I'm scared that it'll go away any minute now. Here's a little list of what I've been trying to turn into good habits:
Reading my daily horoscope
You know how there's those news things on snapchat, on the same screen as everybody's stories? Well, if you click on the one that says Vice, one of the articles is always your daily horoscope. Now, because I live on the other side of the world from the US, the time difference is over 12 hours, meaning my daily horoscope arrives some time in the afternoon or evening. So at the end of the day I check my daily horoscope, in order to not self prophesise, because however much the stars may be respected I am not letting them dictate what I do. Instead I analyse my horoscope to see how well it relates to how my day has been, and it's been surprisingly accurate lately. I feel like there's so much uncertainty in life, and having something that predicts how you're going, no matter how far fetched your interpretations have to be to connect it to your day, gives you a little bit more control and peace of mind.
Joining a book swap (or get a pen pal or something)
This may just be related to what I've done over the last couple of days, but this is one of them. It involved me actually posting something on Facebook, which is a shocker but has also showed me how sometimes social media can be a good thing that connects people and possibly exposes them to new, unprecedented material. Agreeing to this was good because it's left me excited. I just love the idea of sending a book I love to a stranger. I want to leave a little note on the book and everything, and maybe it'll make this person happy. Not to mention, I also get a whole bunch of free books in return.
Watching a TED Talk every night
This is one habit I love. I've watched TED talks on personality, motivation, racial identity... all sorts of things. Late at night, before reading, I plug my headphones in, play the video, and just lie there. Sometimes if I'm really tired I'll close my eyes and listen to the voice, and other times I'll be fully engaged and watching, even writing down a quote if something jumps out at me. TED talks are wonderful, wonderful things, and watching one every night is a good excuse to learn something new.
Watching Gilmore Girls
This show is innocent, relatable and the perfect thing to make you feel a little happier and warm inside.
Going absolutely makeup free
Okay, so if you're going to an event, or you're seeing a boy/girl you want to impress... fine. I get it. Makeup is confidence sometimes. But what about all those days where you're literally just doing your usual? Yes, you might be in public - but does it really matter? Don't make putting makeup on become a daily ritual. Your skin will thank you, and eventually your self confidence will too.
Trying free opportunities
So today we went to a free yoga class at school. I mean, it wasn't great and it was a little dodgy, but it was nice to try something new. It's like how in the holidays we went to a free boxing class, and a free weights class, or how we walked through free art galleries. Doing stuff out of the norm makes you feel accomplished and more full, and the fact that it's free makes you feel even better.
For the longest time I was only writing in my diary once a week maybe. There was this month or two long period where I had absolutely no blog post inspiration, and no longing to even write one. But over the last week I've been writing in my diary almost every day. What I write about changes drastically on a day to day basis, because clearly my problems are situational, and my mind works in an 'out of sight, out of mind' way - but writing everything down makes me feel great and in control. Having my thoughts laid out in words on a page makes me feel like I know myself better. I know that not everybody's a diary person, but try writing whatever comes to your head down. Just once.
Good luck and have a nice day.